Leaving Jerry Alone
I normally would be very excited when going abroad for a vacation but that was not the case when Jerry was there. I hated leaving Jerry alone and wished that I could also take him along.. Jerry used to be very upset at seeing the three of us leave and what my feelings were at that time were hard to describe. Jerry used to be in the hands of the servants which I disliked immensely but there was no other option. During my vacation, I would always be thinking about Jerry and what he would be doing. We would often call up home and enquire about how Jerry was. On knowing that he was fine would give me a enormous about of satisfaction and comfort. I clearly remember the joy and happiness with which he used to welcome us back. He used to jump on top of us and his joy had no bounds. It was a sight which was totally unique and I can never forget it for the rest of my life. I always used to get things for Jerry including bones to play with and biscuits. Jerry used to love them. I used to be so happy to be back with Jerry and thanked God for Jerry’s good health.
Losing Jerry
This paragraph is going to be very difficult for me to write. I remember Jerry used to have tick fever a number of times. Ticks used to be small insects which used to suck the blood out of Jerry and used to make him very weak. There used to be tick powder which we would pour over Jerry’s body to kill the ticks. A couple of times Jerry had it we were able to catch the fever in time and kill it with powder. The ticks had covered the whole of Jerry’s body which was going to be the last time he had this deadly fever. Jerry had become so weak and it made me cry to see him like that. All the vets had said that nothing could be done now and Jerry would live for a few days more. I felt so helpless at that point and so low as I have never felt. One morning I heard my father call me loudly and saw that Jerry had passed away. He was lying there in total peace. Jerry was around 8 years old and as they say 1 human year equals to 7 years of a dog. Jerry in that case would be 56 years old. They say that the life of a German Shepherd was short and Jerry had lived his life.
Tough Times
It was a very difficult time for me and it felt as if a part of my life had come to an end. Jerry was like a brother to me and the best friend I have ever had. They day Jerry passed away I went to bury him and on the way back could not help myself from crying all the way home. I definitely felt a sense of loss and was totally overwhelmed by emotions. It also had a very telling effect on my mom, as I had earlier said how close she had become to Jerry. Up till the present time I have still not been able to overcome the loss of Jerry and miss him like crazy at times. I can still picture him going for a drive in the car. We have not been able to keep a dog after Jerry. I guess his loss was so great that we just not have been able to come to terms with it. Keeping a dog requires a lot of care and having a lot of time at your hands for him, which is one of the reasons for not keeping another dog. The ultimate reason would be Jerry himself, his beauty, charisma and intelligence which no other dog can ever possess. I guess it will be difficult for you to believe me but at the time of writing this chapter on Jerry I had tears in my eyes which showed the affection and love I will always have for him.
Overcoming Jerry's Loss
I would have to say that losing Jerry was a big loss for me and I have never been able to recover from it. It is true that life goes on but when you lose something so close to you, it definitely has an impact on you and your life is not the same anymore. Being the only child makes me more sensitive and emotional at times like these. Since Jerry was my best friend losing him also felt like a part of my body had gone with him. We also have not kept a dog after Jerry, as the loss of Jerry was too overwhelming for us. Besides I had become busy in my work and used to come home in the evenings. I would not have to give or spend much time with the dog which would be unfair to him. It would have been too much of a burden on my mom taking care of him. After the passing away of Jerry I decided to keep busy in work which enabled me to concentrate on work related things and time was beginning to pass quickly.